A Girl's Excuse

I can't tell you how many times I've heard a guy make this comment:

"Wtf, why are girl's things so much cheaper than guys? "
The next time you make this comment, you better make sure you're not around me because I will smack you!

Okay, let's take a look into the daily maintenance of a girl.  Mind you, this post is coming from a girl who is not that feminine already.

First, we have to wash our hair... Which is long... And vulnerable to split ends.  Therefore we need serums, deep conditioners, hair balm, etc.

Then after we dry it, we have to do our hair, which involves

Hair sprays, gels, wax, what have you.

Depending on what style you feel like, you have to comb if with different types of combs,

straighten it or curl it (which comes in a variety of sizes).

Then we need a variety of hair accessories to clip, pin, volumize more, or tie it.

We need a variety of creams, lotions and sprays for our skin to keep it soft and radiant.
This isn't my entire collection.

This isn't including face cream which is a whole other thing.  Serums, masks, oil, etc.  The above is just showing the different types of face creams I use depending on what my skin feels on a day to day basis.

Not to mention face cleanser.  I have different types of face washes - Oil based, stronger, mild, scrubbers, etc., all necessary to keep a balance in my skin.

Now it's time for makeup.

Foundations/powders.  Despite it doing the same thing, there's different types of it.  A girl must choose from how heavy she wants it, the look she's going for and the lightness or darkness of it.
  I don't use foundation and still I find it necessary to have one just in case.
Even when I don't wear powder, I still have to have it around in case!

Blushes.  Because sometimes a girl's skin tone decides to not to match the tone of a blush they used just yesterday or they're going out in the day and can't use a blush that's the same strength as at night... Or they're doing a different look.

Eye shadows, most likely the biggest collection for girls.
Again, different types of eyeshadows and colors for different looks.

Lip color.  Comes in gloss, stick or glaze formats.
Also some which sting your friggen lip to make it look pouty.  Beauty is pain.
Mind you, I rarely even wear lipstick and I STILL have a collection!  JUST IN CASE right?

Liners for the lips and eyes.  Variety of colors for different looks.

Then you need eyelashes.
These things are not cheap, especially when you need to replace them every so often!
They're about 7$ a pair.  In each of those containers I have several ones, so think about how much that is alone!

Not to mention accessories!  I have a wimpy collection :(  Because 1) my wrists are too small, all bracelets seem to fall through my hand easily  2) fingers too small, can't wear casual rings, must have elastic in them or custom made  3) I am allergic to it if not gold so can't wear for long  4) ears are allergic to EVEN gold and extremely allergic to things that aren't gold!  5) I never change my necklace.

We also need a variety of shoes.  For running, heels for dressing up and must have variety to match our outfits, and also those flats but still casual dressy shoes for the inbetween.  Guys have runners and dress shoes which are simple, flat and can match everything.  Girls are suppose to look like peacocks or something and carry so much variety of colors on them that black just can't match everything.  Btw, like my new shoes?  Don't I look like those really feminine old fashion girls from back in the day?   That's actually why I like them hahahah  These ones have structures in them with a wedge, I can't wear flat flats, they hurt my feet!

Okay, back to the topic at hand.
Now, here's the messed up part.

I didn't show you my whole collection of makeup...  Only the ones that were close by and not packed away.
I pack them according to how often I use it.  There's an "everyday" to "every other day" to "rarely."

Not to mention, we need to buy girly uh... products *cough* which is mad expensive, nail polish (which also requires nail polish remover, cuticle oil, nail filers), hair removal products and also more clothes than guys.  Even underwear is more complicated for girls.  Must come in assortment of styles and unlike guys who just choose one KIND from their limited choices, girls need them ALL.  It's not a question of which one, it's a question of which one should we buy MORE of when buying all of them.

 Even pjs... Okay, I am not included in this because I wear the ugliest friggen PJs EVER.  hahaha But we are encouraged to buy attractive pjs that makes a guy want to come and cuddle you while they just wear sweats and a beater!!  I would chase down whoever my future boyfriend is and make him hug me so I don't need nice pjs.  But then again, I am the girl who went up to a guy and forced him to talk to me so maybe it's not wise to listen to me, I lack the feminine grace.


So the next time you see girl's clothing selling for 5-25$, don't ask why we get things cheaper, see it as someone giving us a break!!

Granted, we don't NEED it (in terms of survival), but the same guys that complain about girls being high maintenance check out girls who are high maintenance!  Actually the above is not even high maintenance, just basics so imagine high maintenance girls!! hahaha



To tell the truth, I'm actually starting to really dislike makeup.
No wait, I didn't mean that.  I LOVE YOU makeup!!
Thank you for all those times you made me almost attractive!!
What I mean is, I'm starting to dislike the makeup look or feel of heavy makeup.

I always see so many videos and blogs dedicated to teaching girls how to do their makeup or achieve different looks and I wonder,

How much knowledge can we really absorb on makeup for basic looks?

  It's usually the same thing, just with different colors.

When I want to do my makeup like a certain celebrity, I look at her picture... And then match the according colors and style of it.  I'm not trying to sound mean, but I don't understand how a girl cannot grasp that, for example, a celebrity is wearing blue eyeshadow with some white in the corner?  Seriously?

Well, I decided that I too, can teach you about makeup then.

This is what I use for my daily makeup now:

Powder for shine, black eyeliner for color (wtf kind of color is that?) and concealer for... Uh concealing.

Fyi, eyeliner = Prestige  Concealer = Erase paste
 Best products, I know my stuff k!


I use the eyeliner on the inner rim of my top eyes only where the waterline is.  This makes it subtle yet definitely more defined.  People won't be able tell you have eyeliner on yet it makes a huge difference.  Put concealer on undercircles and dark spots.  Powder for nose to control shine and voila...

How to look like crap 101.

You're welcome.

From the pages of my mind:

Though I warn you, this may bore you.

Those who dislike something about themselves or wish to be a certain way already have it in themselves to become what they desire.  If this were not true they would not have even held the capacity even begin to dislike or long for a certain trait.

That being said, whatever we are now, does not mean it is all we are to be nor all that we can become... Sometimes we merely require the opportunity to exercise this person within us.

If one wishes to know the personality of someone... One must examine them in two scenarios.  One, when getting what they want and the second, when they don't.  A person who establishes themselves through situation rather than through character will find little to remain of themselves when all good things wash away.  They drift along bullied from situation to situation, acting upon impulse and emotion rather than principle and logic.  If a situation should grant them luck, their personality will be pleasant and actions free of harm.  If a situation is bad however, they will become malicious, self-pitying and quick to point fingers to excuse themselves of any actions they partook which were lacking of morale.  Those who remain the same, carrying the same principles in both scenarios is one who has devoted the effort into developing a character to rely upon.  These are the ones who make mistakes as all do, but accept it as a part of their growth.  It is those who blame others for their mistake that never learn for they've never established or acknowledged the existence of any mistake to learn from, all they know is blame. 

What is Happiness?

More specifically, how do we attain it?

What do we do when happiness "runs out"?

Do we look for someone to blame?

Should we get angry?

Should we get sad?

Should we use humor?

Do we pause and realize we don't know what to feel?

Or should we just take a deep breath and keep at the chase?

What we fail to realize is...


1) There will always be a chase: humans are built to psychologically want more and more.
We'll find ourselves wanting something, get it, experience a burst of happiness and settle into feeling mere satisfaction after.


We are only entertained for that moment of time.  We want what we can't (or believe we can't) have.


2) Humans tend to over complicate things...  Perhaps to try to make the award of anything seem more valuable.  But that only limits the amount of happiness we can have in our life.


3) Everything we hold here is on loan only.  Our looks, our bodies, our possessions, our company.  None of these are ours except the memories, our feelings, our outlook and our actions.  Sooner or later, we must return it.


That being said, whatever we achieve, whatever we hold, whatever we do... All of it is like entertainment only.  Embrace the chase, enjoy it.  Don't think of what it is you don't have because none of it truly belongs to us anyways.  Nothing is owned to us... Not even our health so squeeze it for what it's worth.


If you really think about it...  Happiness is not as concrete as we think.  The fact that brain's hormones can be manipulated and "tricked" into feeling happy almost means that we can only be blamed for our own unhappiness for those who have the opportunities but don't take them to better themselves.


Now before you go out and try to grab whatever you can even if it means doing wrong, also realize that...


Some people get what they want in their life, but never develop any character to truly understand what they hold to appreciate it.  When it's gone, none remains of themselves.


Know what you're going for and why.  I believe those who carry themselves with principles and respect truly understand the worth in what they're going for... It's like if you're a guy going for a classy girl you really want... But instead of pursuing her with respect you stalk her and rape her.   Let's say when you get caught you says it's because you wanted her that much.  But in truth, you had no idea what you were going for.  If you had truly understood her worth, you would have handled the pursuit with the utmost respect for her, no?


Well, that's what people who go through life grabbing whatever they want without any principles are like.  They believe they know what they're going for... But in truth, all they know is greed.


Okay, weird example, but it got my point through right? HAHAH


Fyi, I'm not saying pushovers are winners.  Not letting someone budge in front of you in a line does not mean you have a lack of principles.  Cutting in FRONT of someone means you do.


There is a  quote that we must understand that everyone just wants to be happy, even our enemies so we must not hold anger for those who do wrong...


However...


I may agree on not holding ON to anger, but I still can't not find the peace in that quote to make me feel at ease.


In that same quote I hear, "Okay, so I'm included in that, so what makes you think you're more valuable than me that you can harm me when I just want to be happy too?'"

We all have different approaches to life.

But doing wrong is not a technique.

Anyone can do wrong... If you do wrong, you better be really skilled at it.

No cheap stuff that anyone can do but has principles not to cause that's just ANNOYING.  

Ie, you better do it up like casino royale if you wanna do wrong!  hahaha jj

Life is not a destination, but a journey.

Don't pity anyone, not even yourself because pity means you don't believe they can 

better themselves or their situation.  We can only sympathize.  Pity is limiting.

Okay, that's all.

- Written by the smartest person EVER so obviously you should listen to what I say.

Obviously.

Summer Time!

wtf, midnite looks like a model and I'm the background prop 
showing off my overabundance of veins, double wtf

midnite's trying to make a bubble face too.

Trying to get to that catnip

Tanning my legs at michelle's.  My legs go from dark to light hahahah

michelle & i at my place.

Where I lent her my dress...

Good thing I already had a picture of it so you guys will have a better idea about

the story I'm going to share with you guys...

After handing it to her, she tries it on and I tell her, "The string part ties in the back."  She proceeds to tell me with the most sarcasm and attitude, "Really?!.... Yeah, I'm not stupid."

She then changes out of it and looks down in midconvo, and says, "Oh crap, I put my pants on backwards."  So she pulls her pants down to change, stands there for a good 10 seconds pantless analyzing her pants, just to conclude,  "Oh WAIT, no they're not, my POCKETS are just in backwards!"   HAHAHAH Always befriend stupid people, they're so entertaining!!

I've been busy trying to find a job...

Cause you know,

Being a lifeguard in Hotel City on fb just won't do it

(notice how miserable they look?  I think they're dead.)

That game is friggen boring btw.  I don't know what people see in it.

People I can't stand:

1.  Girls who are ugly but try to act like a bitch as if it'll scare you into thinking they're pretty.

Based on their logic, not only are they ugly but they're stupid too.

2.  People who do wrong but use self pity to excuse themselves from recognizing it... And then anger.  If you use an excuse, you can't go back and use anger.  If you're using an excuse that means that you're accepting that you did it...  If you use anger that means you are offended because you don't feel you did something wrong.  If you use both, you're just frantically looking for a way out to delude yourself from the truth.

3.  I know it's not a person but I can't stand Lisa Simpson in the Simpsons.  AHAHAH  She is such a know it all, goody two shoes, busy body.  Who cares if she's smart as if that'll justify her inability to allow others to live their life as they wish when they're not harming anyone!!  She preaches all this then acts like a bitch to milhouse.  DAMN YOU! hahahaha

4.  hypocrites.  Everyone is one to an extent but there's a grand difference between true hypocrites and people who are just borrowing the tendencies of a hypocrite.  Those who are borrowing the tendency recognize and try to keep an eye out when they do something contradicting... True hypocrites play on self denial and blame constantly.

5.  Show-offs....... That don't have anything to show off but show it off anyway.  I just ask that they at least have something INTERESTING/TRUE to show/tell me!!  

Sadly, the stuff on the bottom of my shoe is more interesting.

6.  When people expect me to change to do something THEIR way.  Ie.  I don't like to text but they'll expect me to repeatedly reply their texts because THEY like to text.  I don't mind if they like to text me cause I know they like to... But why should I be expected to change who I am?  My girl friends understand this... Guys on the other hand, DON'T.

7.  When people try to get me to tell them stuff they want to know to satisfy their curiosity or to know if I'm good enough to be around them when I never asked to be.

8.  People who are snobs!  I don't care if you think I like you and you don't feel the same.  Liking someone back and treating them with courtesy and respect are two different things!

RIGHT CHARISSE?  HAHAHA

9.  Men who are dull without alcohol.  You party with them and converse with them and think, "Wow, this person is awesome!!  He's so fun!"  Then you hang out with them without alcohol and they're not funny, they're quiet and boring as hell.  Alcohol is a man's padded bra for personality.

10.  Guys who think I like them just because I'm talking to them and then get pissed off when they realize it was just a conversation.  See, I recognize that I have no social grace, it's sad when people think they do but say the most awkward things ever.

IE.,  "What?  You don't remember me?!  Wtf.  I met you 3 years ago that one time, how can you not remember?  That's just rude."

I suspect he expected me to remember him because I was nice to him and he thought I liked him then realized I didn't actually remember him.  You'll know I'm flirting with you if you feel extremely uncomfortable and awkward around me, thank you very much.