I feel my heart about to implode as that familiar, yet unacquainted feeling of doom sinks heavily upon it. It is a doom that has happened, is happening and will continue to happen. My body has fallen numb, acting as a grave to my very soul. It's only a matter of time before my soul will admit defeat, submit to a change in character and to my very essence in an attempt to stop the torture unleashed upon me.

It poses as a key to my happiness, yet at the same time, a door to my worst fears.

Types of pictures I HATE
I was going to use pictures of girls I don't know but I decided it was too mean. Thus, I had to provide my own examples... Please do not take these pictures and use them against me hahaha

1. Girls who "accidentally" squeeze their boobs together in pictures.


the "Oh, am I squeezing my boobs together? I didn't notice" pose.

Even GUYS know you're doing that. Shit.


2. Girls who use glasses to pose with.



Because of girls like you, I constantly have guys coming up to me asking, "Are those glasses real?" or, "Are you trying to look like a secretary?" to, "Why you wearing glasses for, are you trying to look smart or sexy." I have NEVER posed with glasses like this, EVER! First of all, I need glasses, my eyes can't tolerate contacts well. Second of all, if I happen to look sexy or smart, that's not my fault, if just comes with it! hahahaha I really need glasses and they're not a fashion statement. I'm so conservative, how can they be!! -____-


3. Girls who hold their hat while taking a picture



Can you see the similarity with this pose and the last? It's as if they need people to notice how they're wearing a hat and how "tough" and boyishly sexy they think they look with it. It doesn't even look natural. It's like a girl posing sexy with a gun. If it really came natural to them, they wouldn't even need to emphasize it.

It's a hat, you don't need to hold it, it won't fly away.


4. Girls who try so hard to look sexy.



I don't oppose sexy pictures, providing that the girl can pull it off without looking desperate... But most can't and they end up looking like an ad for STDs.

I also can't stand girls who feel the need to flash their chest in every picture as if to compensate for their face.


And the worst pose to me? Are you ready?

Continue after the jump to find out what it is!

The following post would either 
have you cringing or nodding.



The other day I asked my friend whether he had made any donations to help the situation in Haiti. His response? A cold and seemingly heartless, "no." Curious, I asked him if he planned to.

He said,

"No, I don't believe in charity."

- I bet you guys think I blew up on him, don't you?! Well, if you think that it shows how little you understand me. Yes, I can debate but it doesn't mean I can't respect another person's view point. It's when there is a lack of logic or justified reasoning in their view that makes me angry. Simply saying or doing something based on what you "feel" with little basis to it doesn't make it a viewpoint, it could just be an example of your stupidity or greed. It's view POINT not view LIKE. Okay, that was lame, but you gotta admit, view like also sounds remarkably like "feel like." Ahhh! -

Okay, continuing on...

I asked him why he doesn't believe in charity... He replied,

"Because it's nature's way of balancing things out. Every time humans intervene we just mess it up even more. It sounds cruel but if we saved everyone, it's going to exhaust nature's resources and so forth."


Read more after the jump!

The Difference

When I say, "I don't deserve these tears," it doesn't mean that I think I'm too good to be crying. It means I feel there's more that I can go through, more that can be suffered before I am deserving of such tears.

In other words,

I am not worthy to express such tears.

On another note, I was thinking today of how so many people say things such as, "I'll pray for you" for those in need. Sometimes, you can do nothing or you may have too little to give which leaves only the thought of prayer remaining. But for others who have a lot yet shake their head and offer only prayer... Why should God do what you aren't willing to do? Is that not implying that God is your servant, told to do the things you can be doing but choose not to? You might as well not even pray then.


sidenote: I added the pictures from Michelle's Birthday and some others to my album, so if you've been waiting for them, go retrieve.

Our kind of Friendship:





@ the club: I was getting ridiculed by someone for not being able to handle any drinks and thus, not wanting to drink... To save myself I grabbed Fredalyn, pointed at her and said:

"YEAH!? WELL MY FRIEND HERE CAN OUTDRINK ANYTHING YOU GIVE HER!! IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT IT IS! SHE'S NEVER PUKED IN HER LIFE FROM DRINKING!!"

The attention drifted from me to her as I cheered her on to the mini drinking contest I signed her up for.


10 minutes later, she was puking her ass off while I just stood there, shaking my head, "WHAT HAPPENED MAN?! You let me down!!" hahahaha Hey, at least I took care of you after I scolded you for losing!


@ a rave when I was feeling sick and puking, she stood by and watched while eating ice cream and did nothing... Yeah, this bitch is trying to be a nurse and all she could say to me was, "You want some?" Followed with a pause and then, "Wait, let me eat some more since you're puking and I don't wanna use the same spoon as you." hahahaha


So who's the bigger bitch?
Find out after the jump!

My New Year Resolution(s)
...With a twist

This will be a more serious post, so don't expect my random nonsense. :)


You should know that I'm usually not one who believes in New Year resolutions. For one, why start them in the new year when you could have been working on yourself all along? I guess it's that boost of motivation people like to feel but soon forget.

Nevertheless, this year I decided to do something similar to new year resolutions, only it's not. Instead of stating what I plan to do, I'm announcing what is already in the process of changing, becoming more pronounced as time goes by. There's a sort of feeling that I can't articulate into words when you feel your soul piecing things together, building up the true you... It's only then do you even begin to feel whole. These words may read easily, but I assure you, they weigh heavily within me.

Read more after the jump.