Faded.



Being who I am only seems to be punished by your actions...
It's like having a whip to my soul, torturing it continously
with the utmost pain until I choose to give in and betray my own worth.



april 25/ There's something some people need to understand... Just because someone wronged you, it doesn't make you a person of innocence. It's like if you wrong someone and another wrongs you in the same context... Why do they only choose to focus on how they've been wronged and not what they've done in disrespect to another? Then they begin talking about what they're deserving of and how they deserve better. You are no better, in fact, you may have brought it on yourself, so save the self-pity speech. If you really cared about morales, it would have shown through your own actions. But because it didn't come out the way you wanted (despite your low and shady attempts), you try to come out telling the whole world how you're stronger and of such innocence. You've got it confused my dears, having someone do your wrong doesn't bring you higher, it could simply just mean that they were playing on your level and you just lost despite your experience at it... That just makes you a loser. Learn the word respect before you demand for it.

Stupidity is a disease


As I was glancing around my room today, I noticed some writing on my bath/shower products written in large letters. I peer closer only to read a disappointing, "THIS IS NOT FOOD, DO NOT EAT." Disappointing because it's astonishing to think how dumb the world has become for the most part.

I often see unreasonable, overly confident people giving attitude to those who are smarter and better justified in their reasoning and I think, "Wow. Do they not know that if it were not for the smarter people and their kind hearts, they would probably not be around today?"

Back then it was every man for themselves. If you're too dumb to get something, then you're basically screwed. It's natural selection in the spreading of genes... Those who are smarter or have an advantage will more likely survive and thus, so will the passing of their genes to further generations. But now? We have so many dumb individuals spreading their genes and fast at it since they can't seem to grasp the concept of protected sex and/or having only one sexual partner at a time.

 The world is slipping.

What's worse is that these people expect so much. They expect the world to cater to them, always quick to complain and the way our society works only encourages it, ie, "The customer is always right." We've established a type of world or actually, it's more correct to say types of countries since it's not like this everywhere, where we pretty much substitute the stupidity of others by using the intelligence of the smarter individuals to think for them... Yet these smarter individuals seem to have to take so much crap from them. I can imagine someone eating those bath products then phoning in to complain about how it was never said that it wasn't food and how angry they are... Can't you?

I'm still the same girl I used to be, just more of it.




april 16/ Never was there even a random msg of care... But I still did it.

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2:57pm / "to know the true character of someone, give them power"