I was drawn to the new BB cream by Missha due to the gorgeous packaging.  If you could remember, I'm a sucker for luxurious looking makeup (remember CLIO's compact powder?).

On the side is a "window" which reveals the BB cream itself.  It's layered with a primer and the BB cream itself which you would have to slightly blend upon every pump.  This line is called the wrinkle filler which was the sole purpose of the primer it came infused with.  The primer serves to fill in any slight voids (wrinkles) so that the BB cream will have something to sit on rather than to sink into fine lines.  There were two shades available, a lighter one and a "natural" one which was slightly darker.  The sales rep told me that I would match the lighter one.  

The lighter shade is byfar the LIGHTEST shade I have ever tried.  In fact, if there's one thing to take from this product, it would be that.  I didn't notice too much on it's self proclaimed ability to lessen the appearance of wrinkles and I would say that the coverage is medium...  It's definitely not light.

I didn't find that this BB cream to be very good with dry skin.  It easily accentuated it and fell into the sides of any loose flakes.

So was this a good purchase?  For anyone who's looking for a whiter BB cream with more coverage, this would be ideal.

Despite it containing a primer, I also bought an additional BB cream primer.

This primer is suppose to hydrate the skin and is thus, best for winter. 

Whether it was hydrating or not, I can't be too sure... All I know was that it felt extremely thick and greasy on my skin!   I also can't be too sure of whether it made my BB cream stay longer since I never really had a problem with my BB cream wearing out.

W/ daily makeup

With full makeup

Taken with my new baby:  the Lumix GF3
Look how ridiculously clear and gorgeous the colors look!

Will be back with the following post:  the new Missha "Wrinkle Filler" BB cream & BB cream primer

When things go down...
Some people have wondered why they never see me down or even know of my worries.  Why they only see me with a smile when I'm out the door.  They tell me I need to talk to people to feel better when they know I'm sad but I've never been one who likes to talk when it really comes down to it.  Yes, I might rant and disclose things much later after it happens... But during the time it happens, you won't see or hear from me.

Have you ever wondered what's going with me at that time?

Depending on the severity, I can spend hours to days crying.  I could be sitting on the floor of my room crying until I throw up sometimes (very extreme cases).  I would disconnect my phone to cease communication with the outside world.  I want no one to hear or see me in this state.  I can cry to the state where I'm deluded in mental pain.  I stop eating and have no track of time.

Eventually I will take a look in the mirror while still continuing to cry.

This is when I would see a bloated, tear-stained face and feel pity for a girl of such helplessness.  I would then realize that I am pitying myself... Something I hate feeling from anybody because I  believe that pity is only handed to those whom others feel can't do any better.  It's like when you see a bum on the street who is addicted to drugs and you feel pity for the person because you feel they're doomed and possess no strength of any kind to be able to do anything for him/herself.  Compare this to someone who expresses their pain to you and rather than feeling pity for them, you feel a sense of relation to their situation and try to encourage them - Because you believe they can get pass it.

After seeing myself at my worst can I only begin to envision myself at my best.  I start to think... Which I can spend days doing... I would continue to eat very little and just spend the hours of my day attempting to apply logic to my situation.  During one of the worst hardships for me, I lost over 11lbs because of this.

I then decide that I'm not only going to only get over it, but use the opportunity to take the emotions that situation has to offer me to use it as fuel in bettering myself.  When your mind is busy feeling all these other emotions, it has little time to indulge in fear.  This is when you truly get to know yourself and what you're made of.

I try my best never to show myself again until I'm ready or people detect my lack of confidence and troubled mind and tend to bring more problems my way.  For a period of time I used to listen to others when they told me I need to get out and talk to people.  I tried it and it was one of the worst decisions I ever made.  Instead of looking into myself and understanding my pain, I was distracted and feeling reliant on the presence of others.  It may work for other people understand themselves better, but not me and I hate it when people insist they know what's best for me just because it works for them.

When I emerge again, people see a girl who's confident and put together - though I'm not 100%, I know I have enough of myself to feel safe).  Then they tell each other that I'm super strong and can take anything.  No, I cry just like everyone else, I hurt just like everyone else.  I just see things differently...  My tears are for me to learn from so it should be me who sees it more than anybody else, no?  Why cry to others?  What can they do for you that you can't do for yourself?

This is when I start working on myself for the better - Mentally, physically and goal wise.

This is why people think I have mood swings - they hear me sad one second and see me happy the next.  They're not exactly mood swings without any basis to them... They're changes in thoughts that people have failed to catch.


Experience doesn't make you who you are, it shows you who you are.  I will defend that to the end.


P.S.  Some additional pictures from the photobooth on NYE!
I love these things!  Fyi, these are also photoshop-free!  LOL  Namely because they were posted for the public to see online so can't exactly change or everyone can tell hahaha

My sidekick, LY!... Who was kinda like my date to the event cause 

I'm such a loser nobody wants to date me LOL

*Disconnects phone and goes to cry.*