Wee...!

This is a full out rant, one which I would not normally do, but screw it...  Some people are seriously so low it makes me want to puke.

My ex's cousin and dumbass girlfriend who can't spell for shit OR do math (that only leaves being a stupid bitch as an area to excel in), pissed me off greatly due to 4 PARTICULAR things they did.

1)  Went in our room and pushed everything out without our authorization or permission to do so, so that they can take over the master bedroom despite the fact that my ex sacrificed for them and I cleaned and cooked a lot for them.

2) Told his MOM on me saying I was being mean when I politely commented that it would have been better if they had asked us first and then had his mom email my ex to tell me to fuck off.

3)  Told my ex that he threw away all our stuff that we had left over without telling/asking us.

4)  In actuality kept the stuff they wanted of ours and started using it thinking we won't find out...  But of course, not being smart hindered them greatly in that area.

If they're pathetic enough to take someone's sheets/blanket, what else did they steal.  They stole from his own cousin that drove them all the way from a province over.

They just don't get us Asians.

After ringing through someone's purchases and prescription, they hand me their credit card to pay by...  I grab the receipt and ask them to sign.

"Sign here please."

Only problem was... There wasn't a pen to be found.

 "hmm..."

"hmm..."

Okay, screw it.  I'll just lend him mine.

Now, you're probably wondering why I had to hesitate for so long 

before simply handing him the one in my pocket...

THIS is why.

Yes, it's covered with moo moo cows and it says milk project on it with shimmer enclosing it.

I'm handing this to a 35+ male.

...Maybe he won't notice.

Yeah, no.  He stopped midway, looked at the pen and said... "Wow.  Well, this is... An interesting pen.  Did you steal it from a 5 year old?"  Okay, he didn't say the last part but I'm pretty sure he's thinking it.  But for those of you who has ever used an "Asian pen" IS IT NOT SO MUCH SMOOTHER?!

If he thinks that's bad, he should look at my schedule book:

Damn it.

There was a mentally challenged individual that came in yesterday that called me "doctor."  teehee... That was cute. =)

Creepers

I don't understand why so many of you regulars choose to creep on my page and not say anything!  Yes, I know!  I'm a professional creeper as a side job so you can't trick me!   At first I thought it was because you guys just have nothing to say regarding the content posted, but then you guys would message me separately to say something about it!  What's the point of that?!  It's funner when it's posted in the open!

That way I don't have to feel like I'm talking to myself or just to Charisse.  Hahaha "Hi Charisse! <3"

 We got our photo taken for our ID today.  I didn't know we were going to be that day so I had my hair clipped up in the most hideous way for a picture.  It looked like I just woke up.

"Here's what your photo looks like!"

me:  "Ew."

him:  "What?  I think it's a nice photo.  Do you want to take another one?"

me:  "No, it's okay.  I don't care."

him:  "No, it's fine...  If you want to take another one I can."

me:  "No, it's not the photo's fault, it's just my face."

Everyone:  "Oooooh!"  Which btw why would you make a "you got owned" sound when I said it myself? hahah

him unsure of what to say:  "....Well, I think it's a nice face?"



SERIOUS post.

Ever since I gotten this position, I feel so much hate coming at me from the other trainees (every position is trained together).

Even the new friend I made that is going to be working at my branch had tried for the same position.  She asked me of my credentials to which I replied that I had no related skill in medical.  She, however, did.  In fact, the only thing that probably stopped her from obtaining the position was her hours because they were not flexible.  Well, she had said that herself...  Guess how I felt?

Another trainee who was in another position asked me what I wanted to pursue as my career.  I told him something in medical.  He replies, "So you don't even want to be a Pharmacist?  See, I do and I'm even in school for it but I didn't get hired.  You're lucky."  Guess how that made me feel?

Another trainee who had gotten the same position in another location told everyone of her studies, having a major and a minor, wanting to pursue into it for nursing whereas for me, I hadn't gotten that far along on my studies and have little experience on paper in the medical field.

Everyone has this little thought in them, while they stare at this girl who seems immature and unappreciative based on my appearance.  "Oh, she's just lucky.  She doesn't deserve that position.  She's spoiled and young."

It needn't be said.  I can feel it by the way people speak to me.  Nobody dares to pursue an intellectual conversation with me.

Well, you know what?  I am lucky.


As I placed my uniform on before the class, everyone began laughing at this tiny girl who is equivalent in size to a 17 year old.  My jacket seemed to have swallowed me whole.

I laugh with everyone else, as I tend to do... But I couldn't help but feel many stares accusing me of being unfit for this role.

But you know what?  There are many of you, all with grand pursuits in education and with a history of credentials on paper.  I haven't had much experience in life...   School never taught me much,  I had to prove myself capable to school rather than to have a long list of credentials in school to prove that I am capable.  I never developed my way of thinking in school; I merely practiced it in school.  I never gained wisdom in school, I practiced knowledge.  Thus, school was just there to allow myself to prove a portion of who I was.  Unlike many others, I don't have an impressive background in education to define me.

I learned about health the hard way.  Not through school but through my body.  I use my mind to reflect maturity, not my appearance.  Just because you fail to read me correctly doesn't mean I am the way you think I am.  It simply means you failed on studying something that is real and not on paper.

No, I don't go to UBC or SFU.  I went to a college where I had to take classes slowly to prevent my body from crashing.  No, I'm unable to do full time anything.  But does it mean I'm not hard working?  If someone's health allows them only to do a limited number of things but they do the max amount that they can, is it not equivalent to someone who has better health and can do more?

My vet had said to me when I wasn't working...  "You paid so much for your cat's dental in Victoria and you won't pay 120$ for more blood tests here?"  To which I replied, "I paid so much when I was working.  At the moment I'm not working but I'm giving her the most I can.  In both instances, I'm giving her 100%.  It's not the amount given that you look at, it's the amount that can be given."

Sometimes what you see is not one's inabilities, but rather the limitations that have been imposed upon them.

My First Days of Training

They don't come anymore Asian than me.  I went around befriending every girl that was Asian and brought them together.  Speak Cantonese?  Even better!  I even befriended a 16 and 17 year old who thought I was their age.

The 16 year old was telling me to do my makeup different to look older...  Then the 17 year old started telling me how cute I was which was very awkward for me.  Just as an extra note if you're confused, everyone within the company has to be trained on the history and policies of the company together.

Of course, despite the physical attributes, my mind is still mentally more mature (though probably not by much) and conversing with these youngsters was so entertaining!

17 year old:  "I hate these doors, I never know whether to push or pull."

me:  "...  There's no handles...  How do you even pull?"


16 year old:  "I want to move out"

me:  "Why?"

her:  "So I can eat instant noodles whenever I want."


Then it came to lunch.  No matter how hard I tried, on both days I left pieces of my lunch and sauce smeared on my bag.

So today we learned CASHIERs.  Now, when I say cashiers, I don't mean just simple cashiers which I've tickered with before.  I mean cashiers with computerized systems built in.

Now despite my resume having a company with cashier experience listed in it... They didn't know that I was p/t and although I've worked with a previous computerized cashier, it wasn't much.  My girlfriend said not to worry...  The class is of full of people and they train you so they won't notice.

...I got taken out of the larger class and placed in a class with only 2 others due to our different departments.

Me feeling pretty carefree about the situation.

Lady:  "So which one of you have cashier experience.  You should already have a bit of knowledge about this."


SHE STARES AT ME.  I reckon she had looked over our applications for just us.  So my reaction?

Uh...

Uh...

 Shit, she's still starring at me!!

"I HAVE."

her:  "Oh, okay great!  This will be a breeze for you!"

"HAHAHA.  Yeah...  Sure."

We begin learning just the simplest things but I'm super nervous now because I feel as if she expects me to be really capable.

We do a simple transaction.  I hit cash and enter.  The til flies opens and hits me super hard as I stumble back.

"Are you okay?"

me:  "HAHAHA Yeah."

I'm getting more nervous.  I'm making mistakes... I can't even do the simplest things.

I'm the only one making these mistakes, mind you.  So while she's guiding me, the one who should know.  The other two watch.  I'M SUPER NERVOUS NOW.  

The til flies open, it hits me again.  Guy next to me:  "You might want to step back."  

I'm shaking now.  I'm scared she's going to give me a bad review.

"Excuse me, how do I cancel this?"

Her:  "Oh?  You hit this."

"HAHAHA OH YEAH!!  Stupid me, how did I forget!"

"Yup, I remember now!  I get it!"

After she walks away:

"WTF am I doing?!"

By the end of it however, I was the first one to finish after my nerves calmed down.  On top of that I was working with a very fatigued body again.  Sadly, my brain fog had returned, eyes were drying til I couldn't see properly and I was finding it difficult to concentrate.  :(

Of course, nobody knows this but me so I just look like struggling with stupidity rather than anything else.

Or maybe it was my stupidity that was making my mind tired from not getting it right hahaha